SICK

i felt so sick juz now but i still insisted to do my work
thus ended up with working in semi-conscious state
i hardly remember what did i read or write juz now
ARGH

lesson learnt today: dont ever try to force yourself to do work when you are sick, if not you will end up with wasting your precious time

anyway after taking panadol, feeling better now.
i should sleep earlier today==

NOT HAPPY

ok...here is the case

i'm not very happy now, without any reasons

maybe yes

1st: i'm not sure that should i just quit chinese orchestra or make it as 2nd cca

2nd: i'm uncomfortable to compare with others, but i can't stop myself from comparing

3rd: i'm afraid that i cannot manage to get good results

4th: i'm so freaking undecisive that i kept influenced by others so easily

now i'm still stuck in this labyrinth or dungeon and can't get out of it now

DAMN!

well, should make up my mind very soon